Its HOPELESS..!

I have a freaky twin, Vani.. I've known her inside out and know every pain and suffering she goes through.. But whats that got to do with this..??? well, her life traded a path of hopelessness and helplessness.. I've been there to know whats happening and not everyone learns from others mistakes.. if fate only wanted dis to be so hopelessly the same, den here it goes!

We have walked every path of each other's life. If she's experienced something today and i have seen it closely, i know i shouldn't repeat it.. but you think fate lets tat happen..?? there is no way either of us can escape it.. and so i know that if either of us experience anything, the other has it in store.. patiently waiting.. and here is my turn to experience the hopelessness she went through.. or actually is still going through.. i met a friend recently or actually got to know a person recently, and as i cant keep anything silent, i told her, "vani i got a new friend and ... ... blah blah.. ... and we bonded quite well.." she said, "rakshu seeing u speak like dis, m reminded of myself.. u know what i mean rite..?" n i knew what she meant.. i said,"don worry vani, u know na tat wont happen..?" and as days passed, i found myself following the path vani traded..

Every morning as i woke up, all i did was to message and den talk talk talk.. as i travelled, in class, during lunch, wen back home and till i slept without my knowledge.. i did everything to stay awake every minute the other was awake.. wait, dis is not love! not at this stage atleast..! i stared at my cell every single time i got a report telling ,"delivered to :) " i was so addicted to dis person already..! everything tat happened seem perfect.. i haven found a person dis interesting in a long time and this was something.. the path of thoughts began changing its directions and the first thing i did was to tell vani, "vani, i think m feeling like you do.. but just 0.000001% of it.." vani laughed..! may be she knew what was in store for me.. and so did she warn me to save myself from it.. but what would you do wen u meet a person, get attached to him/her, and your feelings start travelling a new road while you don't even know who he/she is.. you haven seen him/her or even heard their voice..! but you know whats gonna happen if you fall in love.. its not a voluntary action..!

I don't really know whats happening but there's not a single day tat passes without a smile on my face lost in thoughts, or watching a picture or simply even while msgin.. it was then waiting on messengers for a single reply or just for tat online status to beep, and now, there isn't much difference.. its just d buzz of the phone.. :) it becomes everything wen u find a ear to hear, one's time to juz make u smile, a msg to juz ask y u sound low only because a smile was missing in ur previous msg..! or simply cuz u sent a short message instead of a lengthy one..! it doesn't really take long for all this to happen and i now know..

whats that which matters to u d most..? you realise looks are nothing.. what r u if u r all good looking and still don understand one's feelings or even good looking and still not the perfect one..! looks found no place in my list.. i did c the pics, n so did vani.. she said, "not bad..! rakshu..!" so u know, i din mind anything after tat.. today, rather at dis moment wen i recollected my day, i realized tat i hadn't recieved a single msg since morning while i had sent soo many..! now y was i waiting for any msg..? i now realise that it is the same path i will be travelling and on an untarred path with many sharp stones tat will hit me hard everytime i increase my pace and puncture my feelings everytime i go slow.. i know i have nowhere to go, now tat i couldn't help myself.. it all remains HOPELESS yet again..!